Monday, March 22, 2010

Letting go...

My big baby..the youngest of my four permatas...the clown in the family... is leaving home sweet home.

Although it is very hard for me to let him go from my armpit, I have to provide him with wings to fly...for his future sake.

I hope that he will adapt well at his new college...

I hope he will be more independent and disciplined...

I hope he will try out everything and venture into new possibilities that the college has to offer.

I hope he will discover his potentials and use them to the fullest...

I hope he will turn out to be an all-rounder individual...

I hope he will learn as many things as possible..things which sometimes I as working mother have no time to teach and train...

Son,use all the opportunities given and provided by the college to the fullest...


All packed and ready...

Daddy dearest is tying his tie for the last time...maybe daddy will not be able to do this again in future...



Fastening his watch...

Tying his shoe-lace...


And finally.. my youngest permata is leaving home...
The house now feels so empty and quiet now.We really miss you son...

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

A quiet mid-term holiday ...

Other than completing my school work,occasional trips to my parents' house and giving extra classes,I am having a very quiet mid-term holiday.We do not go any where and dear hubby does not even take any leave.He is busy at the moment ,preparing for his college trip to Bandung...and we do not even go to KL to join him.

Three of my children are at home.Along is still at his college.I suppose he is just going to stick to MARA and continue with what he is doing at the moment,though I can see his temptation to apply for other scholarships like Petronas,MISC and Shell.Maybe this is due to the fact that MARA does not promise any vocation to their students after graduation.Anyway ,what is important he already got a place and a sponsor.As long as his CGPA is excellent,I am sure any company will hire him regardless of his sponsorship.So,I hope for now he can focus on his studies.

As for Angah she is busy with homework.Maybe she has experienced how chaotic and traumatic it can be for last minute studying.And I told her over and over that upper form syllabus is far more difficult than the lower form.A student can easily get straight As for PMR but not for SPM.I keep on drumming into her head that she has to be consistent and she has to start right now when she is in form four.There is no such thing as honeymoon year if she wants to score in her SPM.Yes,co curricular activities are important but academic performance outweighs it.Application to any universities and colleges is not based on just co cu activities,she must possess good impressive academic results too.

Maybe some people think that I am a bit harsh towards my children when it comes to education.To me, parents need to be mean in order to be kind to their children.We have to push or force our children first in order to know how far they can go.We have to make sure that they are not doing it half-heartedly.And once they reach their level best, we stop.Many students fail not because of their inability but because of not enough trying...In fact,I have seen students fail or dropout from school not because they lack in capability, but because the lack of support,encouragement and "enough push "from parents.Yes, some may say that academic achievement is not everything.Excellent students can turn into mediocre staff when they enter the working world.However,as parents we must not use such excuse for not trying our best.What is important we have tried our best,so we leave the rest,the future of our kids to the Almighty..

Daughter Ifah is busy too with her "pakej percutian".Sorry ,she is not going on a holiday,but to finish her homework package.One of the content in the package is a compilation of twenty essays. She missed a few lessons before the holiday due to health problem,but now I can see that she is catching up.Well,I can only pray that she does her best..

As for big baby,he gets a rest from doing homework.He is counting the days to be at his new college.So he spends most of his time reading Grolier encyclopedias.One thing about him is he likes to read.Sometimes he knows about certain events first than I do.

As for mommy dearest she will take a break from the chores by either blogging or face booking.She not only manages to trace many of her friends in varsity, secondary and even primary schools but gets news as their where about,family and work.Some are good news but a few unpleasant ones.As servants we can only plan but it is up to the Almighty to grant ....

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

When the cat was not around....

I seldom write on other things but my family.But a few episodes which happened this afternoon have sparked my interest to write on a different subject matter.

Earlier this afternoon I went to one of the army hospitals for my big baby's medical examination.No..no..he is fine alright.The examination is just a requirement for him to enter into MRSM.

So we stepped into the out-patient building.We were greeted with a smile and a very warm welcome.After giving the form and particulars,we were asked to sit.Fine...It was a very relaxing and pleasant atmosphere, with only less than ten patients waiting in line.

Less than ten minutes,we were called up by the nurse.We were asked to go to radiology department and get the x-ray report.Actually this is the second visit to the hospital.The first one was last week to take the x-ray and the urine.This week is to gather all the reports and to meet the doctor.I didn't complain much although I know that this medical examination can be done in half a day if it is at the General Hospital.But because dear hubby chose to do it at the army hospital,I just follow the tide.Anyway who am I to make such a fuss.Two days they said,so two days I waited...

We had no problem at the radiology.The report and x-ray film were all ready.I took the film and brought it to the receptionist at the out-patient department ...and again we were asked to wait.

With nothing to do,I just glued my eyes on the TV screen.The show was "Kak Odah driver" ,which I have never gotten the chance to watch before this.Five minutes later we were called up again.Now one of the nurses told us that we couldnt see the doctor today.They gave us a very lame excuse...that was the system broke down earlier and it would take sometime to recover the data and hence they couldnt print out the urine report.So they asked us to come back again the next day.To come another day is definitely a waste of time and a waste of petrol.So,I told them I d rather wait even if it was going to be hours rather then coming back the next day. Seeing that I insisted on waiting,the other nurse came out with a solution...telling me that they d trace the urine test manually.Aha...it can be done and solved!
There is always another way or a different solution.What if I were such a weak and meek person..sure kena goreng punya..To these type of civil servants do you know that part of your duties is to overcome whatever problems that might arise in the best possible way instead of coming out with excuses...

The second episode...I was given back the form and asked to go for dental examination. Never mind it is just next door.I entered the room.I bypassed the first room because the person in there was talking on the phone.I went to the second room which appeared to be an examination room.It was empty.I marched on ...the third room.The door was wide open and I saw a man in uniform (whom I discovered later to be the dentist) lying on a sofa with his two legs on the arm rest and at the same time talking to his staff...They did not even bother to close the door.I am sure as civil servants we are not allowed to behave in such a manner while at work even if we are the boss..Or was it my fault because I didnt give any assalamualaikum...No...no..I am sure what was portrayed in front of me was very unethical.
Anyway..the dentist did as what was required by the form but he definitely couldnt hide his red face ...

Third episode...Then we were shoved to another room..where they took the weight,height,blood pressure and did some eye test.The room was filled with 5 other staff.As one of the staff was checking big baby, the others were laughing and talking hilariously without bothering my presence.One was flipping through pages of a shoe catalogue and commenting.One of them was walking around and almost bumped on me.Maybe they thought I was just one mak chik kampung who doesnt know the rules and regulation at the hospital.An examination room which resembled a market place...

Final episode...I can just ignore the above episodes and come out with some excuses for their manners.Maybe they are only the support staff and not professionals.However what I saw in the final episode was even worst!When my number was called I pushed my big baby into the doctor's room.As usual I was expecting a doctor and his nurse on duty.But I was wrong this time.There were three people,the doctor,the nurse who was standing and waiting for orders ...and wait there was another one occupying the seat in front of the doctor,whom I would call "ahli mesyuarat tingkap" (borrowed words from Do Re Mi film).
The doctor asked big baby to occupy the seat next to him.He started to write,check and sometimes stop for 10 seconds or so to talk to that ahli mesyuarat tingkap.As they were talking in English,not mandarin or tamil, I couldnt help myself from eavesdropping.They were talking about their friend who is now a free-lance surgeon and making big bucks.I understood well... but in my faded pink blouse and slipper they possibly thought that I was just a dumb orang kampung.

I was trying to relate this to my kind of situation.What if I were in my mid-teaching and suddenly one of my colleagues appeared at the doorway and asking about this friend and that friend.Would I stop and entertain my colleague?If I did,well I am bound to receive complaints from students and parents.But here these two young doctors simply mixing work and play,entertaining his friend while attending a patient!I wonder what they learned at their induction courses or PTK courses..and ........I wonder where their boss was...when the cat was not around,the rats were all over the ground...

Anyhow,I managed to get everything done before 4 pm.For the next medical examination,I am definitely going to get it done at one of the general hospitals...I know it is crowded but the service is far more efficient...

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Hari Penuh Emosi...

Begitu lega hati ini ...tuhan saja yang tahu...
Betapa bersyukurnya aku...tuhan saja yang tahu..
Begitu sukarnya jalan yang pernah ku lalui... tuhan saja yang tahu akan hikmahnya
Aku tempuhi...aku redah...aku pikul...aku bertahan...
Hingga satu ketika aku hampir tersungkur...
Aku hilang arah...
Dek tikaman dari belakang..

Tetapi ...
Demi mata-mata jernih yang penuh pengharapan di hadapanku
Demi tangan-tangan kecil yang mengapai ke arahku
Demi muka-muka comel yang tidak mengerti lagi akan sebuah kehidupan..
Aku buangkan ego diri
Aku korbankan kepentingan diri
Aku ketepikan perasaan hati
Aku gaulkan kekuatan yang aku ada
Emosi..mental..rohani... fizikal...
Aku bangun...
Aku lawan...
Aku tentang...

Hari ini...
Airmata kesedihanku yang lalu
Telah Kau gantikan dengan butiran airmata kegembiraan

Aku percaya..
Kebaikan yang aku tabur...kebaikan yang aku dapat
Kesengsaraan yang aku lalui...kenikmatan yang aku kecapi di penghujungnya
Kesabaran yang aku tanggung...kejayaan yang aku perolehi
Bagai hukum karma...

Hari ini tuhan memberikan aku sebuah kebahagiaan...
Membolehkan aku tersenyum ...sepuas-puasnya
Walau pun aku tahu perjalanan masih jauh
Aku yakin...aku tahu...aku percaya
Kau akan sentiasa menyayangi diri ku....

Oh Tuhan...
Ku panjatkan kesyukuran yang tidak terhingga kepada mu...

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

The last count down is over...

Sorry Along...mommy dearest cannot be there to share the joyous moments...Congratulations for getting straight A s...Mommy is proud of you.Have a safe journey back to your college...